In the words of a 20year old

"I am eternally grateful to all my readers, for their responses and queries.  This one touched my heart... Somewhere I felt it to be my story a few months back.  Now that has changed, but I still connect with the emotions in it.  I hope that you find it meaningful and inspiring... And that it makes you move ahead to your health goals with as much passion.

Keep healthy, keep happy!"

Name: ----

Age: 20years

Weight: 73kgs

Health goal: I want to lose 10kgs of weight by December.

Reason for wanting to weight loss:

My interest in losing weight has health, emotional and social connect attached to it.

On the basis of health, a lot of weight is not healthy and can lead various kinds of disorders.  My father is diabetic and my mother is patient of BP and Thyroid.  Being the first born, I am more prone to these disorders and if I don’t take good care of my health, I might get any of these disorders or any other disorder at a very early age.  More than being thin I want to be fit.

I have recently started noticing that my size in clothes has started increasing.  Now in my body type only Indian wear suits best for me.  I wear only ‘Kurtis’ and ‘salwaar-kameez’ because I am able to hide a few kilos in it and it covers up for my problematic areas.

I want to wear dresses, t-shirts and tops but find a few that looks good on my body type.

Now, I am observing myself opting for loose dresses and the thing I love the most, i.e. shopping, has reduced because I am not able to find the clothes I like in my size or it doesn’t suit my body type. 

There are two weddings coming up in my family and I want to look good on those occasions.  Other relatives turn up and say, “Oh! Have you put on weight?” and I find it really embarrassing.  Even my parents are unhappy with my body structure.

I find it embarrassing when my parents restrict my food habits and say something even if I am taking a second serving.  My friends have title me with casual synonyms of fat such as ‘moti’, ‘bhains’, etc., which are more frequently used these days.

My sister who is two years younger, was much bigger in size compared to me, lost drastically by skipping meals or eating bear minimum.  She went in for crash dieting and lost oodles of weight and now is thin and looks good and is healthy.  She can wear anything and everything and can carry it off soo... well!

When I seem my photographs which are taken recently, I notice that I look huge compared to my other friends who are not thin but healthy.  On comparing my photos with the old ones, I observe the changes in me and know how much I've gained.  I want to get back to the old shape and be healthy and fit.

I have done dieting, both gradual and crash, and ended up falling badly sick with a weak body.  I tried my sisters way but again was not successful.

I went for walks and gym workouts on treadmill and exer-cycle, but couldn't continue it more than a week or two, because I hate exercising and if I missed a day, I started avoiding it.

I do not consume much food.  I have home cooked food and don’t prefer eating junk food.

In present scenario, when I should feel good about myself, I end up feeling self-conscious and don’t feel confident with regards to my looks and appearance.  I try to pretend to be okay, but now I am not comfortable with myself anymore.